I’m scared… I apologize for not being such help toeards your problems. Sometimes, I just don’t know how to comfort you. And honestly, I feel like I’m hurting you. No matter how many times you deny it, I think you just don’t see it. You tell me I make you happy yet sad and depressed. That just makes ME feel like such a horrible person.. I’m just scared. You make me so happy and it makes me sad every time you’re in an ugly mood. And it makes me even more sad when I can’t do anything about it. I’m just waiting for the day for you to say, “I can’t do this anymore.” Or “we shouldn’t do this.” Like, I’m seriously just waiting. Because you’ll walk out on me first. Everyone does. Everyone.

4 months ago with 0 notes

You anger me. You sadden me. I am fucking annoyed.

4 months ago with 0 notes

This distance makes everything really complicated. The fact that my mom also cuts off my phone at 9. And you hurting because I’m not there. And me hurting because you’re not here. And me hurting because you can’t promise me that you won’t kill yourself but It’s understandable. At least you won’t anytime soon.

You know, I just don’t believe it when you tell me your life revolves around me, or that I make you incredibly happy or that just thinking of me makes you happy like it seriously just doesnt make any freaking sense to me. WHY?
Dunno but I think it was hilarious when you said you were purposely trying to avoid having feelings for me and its understandable. I honestly didn’t think I’d gain any for you or vice versa. Especially you gaining them for me like it’s just too weird and odd and unbelievable.
But maybe something MIGHT happen and we might just be best friends. You’re right. Who knows. But I hope you really keep your promises.

4 months ago with 0 notes

Honestly, I don’t know if I can do this. This is so hard.

4 months ago with 0 notes

You’re driving me insane and I’m afraid.

4 months ago with 0 notes

I don’t know what to fucking do.

You don’t make sense and I guess yeah, you could just be saying these things and not mean it. But this is serious. Can you mean something? You’re confusing me. I feel like you’re leading me on, but at times I feel like you actually have feelings for me too. But at the same time, It doesn’t make any sense because you told me you want me to understand that you hope i don’t get my hopes up and stuff like that because we won’t date because we live so far. And that I can go out with guys and not be stuck at home with you. BUT THEN when I have friends over, and they’re sleeping over, you sometimes give me an attitude, about how they’re staying over and question me to why i always have so much friends over. And it’s like, well shit. What the fuck do you want me to do? Is this not enough “private” time for you? Because I’d like you to be straight up with me. I don’t know what you want from me and i’m confused as fuck. Your wordings isn’t right and I just feel so lost and confused. I feel like a tiny ant compared to a dinosaur. You’re the dinosaur. I feel so fragile, and honestly, i noticed I definitely dropped down my guard. And I really need to bring that back up a bit. Although, I am prepared for the worst. I prepare myself. But.. If you don’t want me out with my friends, hey. Just say it. 

4 months ago with 1 note

I hate the fact that you still feel the need to kill yourself. I understand how you have no clue to why you’re depressrd buy I hope you never, ever go through with killing yourself. You may have attempted a few times but please don’t do it again. I’m really grateful for you to be alive right now. Although, if you weren’t I wouldn’t have met you. I wish I could do something, but I know I can’t.

But i’m also happy, you told me you’re glad you didn’t leave either otherwise you wouldn’t have met me.

4 months ago with 0 notes

why can’t plane tickets be like 10 dollars

yeah why omfg

4 months ago with 545,876 notes

if you play with my hair until i fall asleep i will fall in love with you

4 months ago with 235,707 notes

Ah. Why do you have to live so far?..

4 months ago with 0 notes

I had anOTHER DREAM ABOUT YOU. we met up and everything omg im done.

4 months ago with 0 notes

Those nights you feel pathetic and dumb.

5 months ago with 0 notes

Day 2, not talking to you until we’re both tired ooooooo.

5 months ago with 0 notes

You can’t tell me you like me and then drift. You can’t tell me you like all these things about me and then drift. You can’t tell me you want to do all these things with me and then drift. You can’t tell me you want to meet up, and then drift. You can’t. You can’t say any of this when you tell me you can’t even be with me unless we’re closer.

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